Exam is Over!

Exam has finally ended. But there was this little feeling that I had just before exam. I started to have a slightly bad feeling, those kinda feeling that I felt when I had to leave the comfort of my home to go for a KL-trip. I'm not sure whether it was a good feeling or not. It was good to go traveling to KL city centre, but to leave the comfort of my home and endure a rather lengthy trip? (This feeling is hard to explain. It's all jumbled up.)

Anyway, as suspected. Good things go down the drain while all the bad things sky-rocketed to the roof. Was I over-reacting or the expressions even down-played the catastrophe that had hit me? I apologized to all whom I had done wrong to and there it was - a particular friend, whose reply left an impact on me.

She blogged about a person whom had been there for her. About how the person cared for her during ups and downs. About how the person made her cry. You may think this person is a saint. Yet, with all the sins that I had committed, could I ever be such a person?

There were meanings to her blog. Meanings that led me to be a better person. Her blog is to remind me that I should be such a person - someone whom others would look up to, someone others can rely on, or just someone whom others can call a 'friend'. Perhaps if I could be that person, I'm worthy to be called a human, or even a 'friend'?

Her blog, somehow, made me shed some tear - though it was just a short while (this just goes to show that I can be cold-hearted, when my friend showed their warmth and kindnes and sincerity).

I have many links here to share but somehow, it is not the time. Packing my bag and preparing to go back home. Perhaps it is the only time I could ever ponder about myself before I join the workforce. Would I be that person or I continued to be a jerk?

But the greatest question remain unsolved.. "Was it the correct choice to come to this uni to study, only to meet this person towards the end of my year1, whom had impacted my life, in more than one way?"


(Editor.menG: If you are reading this and get confused, you are not to be blamed. Even I don't understand him :S This writer has been rumbling all over the place about nothing. I don't even know why he wanted to post it at the first place. Please forgive him - he is going to end his study life and to begin a new one as a worker. Give him some slacks, ok?)